Crabby

Lately I have been just plain crabby...partly and probably mostly because I very much dislike my job. It is a never ending cycle of doing the same thing every day...and it is not even fun...I am the youngest of the girls who work on my shift and they have no idea what it is like for me to work with people who are older than my mom...not that I don't like them..we just have NOTHING in common and they don't realize what I end up doing when I get off work. I do not have the luxury of going home to an empty house and being able to go directly to sleep...I must get off work at 7am and go home and get Braden ready for preschool if hes not already and then maybe just maybe I can lay down for a few hours while the twins sleep...this few hours is usually interrupted by crying babies who then get a bottle in hopes of just a little more sleep. I feel like a bad mother when I do this...I should not be hoping my 13mth old babies will sleep all morning...they should be awake playing and learning new things. So then I go to work again the next night with a few hours of sleep and get yelled at because I am crabby and tired all the time and that maybe I should be working a different shift..OK DO THEY REALLY THINK I WORK OVERNIGHTS BECAUSE I ENJOY LEAVING MY HUSBAND AND CHILDREN AND GOING TO WORK IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT???? I DONT THINK SO! If I had the choice I would be working during the day and be home at night..but we can barely afford to send Braden to preschool let alone Braden and the twins so that is not an option. I just wish that I had done things differently 4 years ago and not quit school when Braden was born...I know mom you were right! SO new goal for my life! GO BACK TO SCHOOL SOONER RATHER THAN LATER! I know it will be VERY hard to balance life with 3 kids, work, and nursing school but I think I can do it because it leads to a very good outcome...

On a positive note...the kids are doing GREAT! They are the most wonderful things in my life and I love them so much! Braden really enjoys preschool and is learning so much...today we went through the entire alphabet and he told me what sound every letter makes...he is so smart! Cade and Riley are amazing...they are always getting into trouble but then what should I expect for twin 1 year old boys? Tonight Riley said to Ryan.."HI DADDY!" It was too cute..he was so proud of himself....It continues to amaze me how wonderful they have done in the last year..at their well baby check we discovered that Cade is the same size and Braden was at 1 and Riley is bigger than Braden was! WOW!

I hope all is well with everyone! Wish me luck on figuring out a way to go back to school in Jan or June at the latest!

So Proud!

Today my dad showed his halter horse Twister at the AQHA Bayer Select World Show...he did amazing! I am so proud of him...he did a wonderful job. Twister, his horse was not so great :( but I think he was just scared! The show ring was HUGE and bright and he had to show to 5 different judges...the class ended up taking about an hour. During the entire time Twister was acting up my dad stayed calm and showed his horse to the best of his ability...it was great (I know I keep saying that but I can't express enough how happy I am!)
I did feel a little bad this afternoon when my mom called and said he was a little bummed out because he said he felt like he disapointed me! What!! NO WAY!! He did something today that many horse show people will never be able to do and he did it WELL!
SO CONGRATS DAD YOU DID GREAT!